So.. why is nothing working? 

For the first time in a really long time, I had a dream about you. It reminded me how our conversations came so naturally--something Terry and I never had.

Been looking at your pictures all day cause I just want to see your face. :( It's like time, space, and everything is against us cultivating our lingering feelings. I miss you. I miss you. I miss you. I miss you. Please don't let my feelings falter. 

Honestly, I feel like I should be thrilled to be here in this beautiful mansion, but I feel so alone. I just don't fit in here. If only I was more talkative.. but unfortunately I just blend in and keep my mouth shut all the time. I miss home, and I miss seeing everyone I know. Bar Harbor is beautiful, and I love it here. I just there there was someone I knew who I could take all these walks and go to all these cool places with. 

I can sense that its happening. Must. Stop. These. Feelings. 

I didn’t think I really believed in these kinds of things, but when you first see them you just have inkling, and it just lingers until you really meet them. I guess I tried really hard to suppress it because I knew that you were bad for me, but I guess it’s safe if I never say it out loud and just keep all thoughts to myself. 

So they stopped quicker than I anticipated. No fun.